Wednesday, February 17, 2010

you draw me closer to love...

My car could be called old-faithful. He always started when I wanted it to, he took me where I needed to go, and there was always enough room to drive one more person. Even though it had one million miles on it, and was one million years old, I would never trade him for anything.

However, I definitely failed him. On Monday, I drove on some ice and totaled him. Peace out old-faithful.. it was nice knowing you.

Now, my beat up jalopy is definitely no where near Jesus, but there is a slight parallel :) ...

Jesus is always there for me. He doesn't ask for anything and is faithful. But there are more than enough situations where I ignore him, or think I know the better way. In a way, I slip on ice some times with situations. The difference in Jesus and my SUV? Jesus never leaves. I don't put Jesus on a tow truck and watch him go.. Jesus is the one who I may have neglected, and I may have done things the way I wanted to, but Jesus is always there picking up the pieces of my totaled heart.

What has God been teaching me through this?

1. Situations occur in my life that are to be used for HIS GLORY.

This semester, things have happened that I wish never had. I am definitely the type of person who can put on a happy face and pretend everything is fine.. but on the inside I am definitely not. Time after time, I tried to deal with the situation myself, and instead of proclaiming the name of Jesus and how he was helping me get through the situation, no one even knew it was going on. Everyone just thought things were fine, and moved on, without knowing that Jesus should have been the victor and should have received the glory, but he didn't because no one knew.

For example, on Monday, when I totaled my car, I was embarrassed and wished no one would have found out.. but I definitely believe that no one can see God in situations that you don't tell them about. As hard as it is to be transparent and to show people that your life isn't perfect, in the end, its really not about you anyways. The car accident was the most God thing I have been through in a while.. His hand was all over it, and so many people said I shouldn't have walked away with only a few scratches. The car that I slid into on the bridge should not have been there, and I should have hit the wall and flown over.

one of my favorite pastors said, "God lets us go through situations so HE will be seen as the tender one--He always brings me back to Him" ....

God allows people to go through situations not so that people will have pity on them, but so that God will be seen as the tender one, as the comfort, as the only thing that will bring peace; He always brings us back to him.

It reminds me of one of my favorite songs, by Mat Kearney...

"You pull me out of the dark.. to show me the way..

you pull me closer to love."

God pulls us out of the dark just to show us the way, not that WE will be famous.. but HE will be famous. He pulls us closer to love. Closer to the unfailing love of Christ.

"But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on GOD, who raises the dead. He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us, on Him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us. As you help us by your prayers." 2 Corinthians 1:9-11

Lord, May I seek you. Show me your ways O Lord. teach me your paths, guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my savior and my hope is you all day long. May I never quit seeking you, and may I long to bring your name praise. At the end of the day, its never about me, but about how I can proclaim you. Keep pursing me, keep seeking me, and allow me to keep chasing hard after you. Lord I can't do anything without you, and you keep showing me that time after time, slippery ice after slippery ice. You are King of my life. May I not just believe in you.. but may I believe you. May I trust that you are working out things in my life for my good, and ultimately for yours.

1 comment:

  1. Wow Kiersten... You need to blog more because this was grrreat and I need to read your posts more:) I'm so glad you're okay! Hope to see you soon!